Went to another literary festival in this city o' mine for a talk about vampires and zombies in our contemporary culture. Met an old prof there who was very happy to see me and then I went through my life since university. Not much done as a graduate of McGill besides teaching at a college and not getting anywhere with my stories and essays besides this blog and some web sites that offer no pay, but plenty of patience.
Very sad...
I have lived in Montreal for over a decade now and I can feel the routine of life in this city entering my skin and thoughts. Gym, work, shopping, festivals, films and the same-old same old. Not much else to report and look forward to this year, besides certain shows and events that already feel like they have been experienced.
So, back to my question: Am I bored? Yes, perhaps. Almost glad at how unpopular this blog is. Not much chance of getting any feedback about how to improve my lot. Focus in my life is on my work - not the college; just the writing - and learning to enjoy my own company. Not always possible. Too much time with guitar and books can even test my own deep patience.
So, what to do? Another routine? Another hobby? Another move? I am thinking about all of those things, especially the move. Almost had a place last January, but I did not get it (too many debts still to be paid). And I think that is the big thing. I have walked on too much broken concrete covered with garbage and excrement to see the charm of this neighbourhood anymore. I have to get out and move my mind about somewhere different.
I think I know what to do...
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